Dear Julia:
My boyfriend's sister is schizophrenic and has been in
and out of hospitals for years now. I met her over the holidays and she struck
me as highly intelligent. I was surprised by some of the things I learned about
her experiences. Julia, she sees demons as you've described seeing them! She
says spirits are influencing her thoughts and other things that remind me of
your writings. I keep thinking that she's not crazy - she's tuning in to
something real in another dimension. Your thoughts? This is a very complex subject, and I'm limited on space,
but I'll do my best. I'm not a medical doctor and nothing here should be
considered medical advice. Further, instead of addressing everyone who has ever
been diagnosed as schizophrenic, this article will focus simply on people who
perceive things such as those you describe. I have traveled through my own
so-called 'psychotic break' and out the other side, so this is a subject I have
direct personal experience with as well as one that I have researched in depth. (By psychotic break,
I refer to the period during which I first psychically awakened and began perceiving things others
could not.) I hear from people every day who are perceiving things
that others can't, none of whom are 'crazy,' so I think it's really tragic that
modern medicine labels all such experiences 'psychotic.' We're so steeped in
modern medicine's views that it feels strange to flip them around and consider
the idea that people who can perceive more than most may be somehow gifted. In
other times and cultures, people who heard voices or experienced visions were
revered as holy. I'm sure that many people who have been diagnosed schizophrenic
are indeed tuning in to other dimensions and
struggling to cope with it all in a world where their experiences are constantly invalidated and
grossly misunderstood. It is striking how closely the world of the schizophrenic
can mirror that of someone in the midst of a psychic awakening. Of course, I'm not the first to
discover such a connection: many great minds have noted these correlations, including doctors Carl Jung and
Joseph Campbell. Both the mystic and the schizophrenic tend to see and
hear things that other people can't; more importantly, they tend to see the same
sorts of things, such as demons, discarnate spirits, and mythical creatures. Both may experience telepathy,
encounters with departed loved ones, precognition, and a sense of unity with people and forces outside
of themselves. In other times and places, spiritual experiences like
visions were actively sought and treasured, while today, modern science
completely ignores and even denies spirituality. Despite this attitude, we are
all fundamentally spiritual beings. It's like we live in houses built over the
ocean but are constantly told that the ocean doesn't exist. If we hear it rumbling beneath us, smell the
salt on the air or glimpse strange marine creatures swimming beneath the surface, we're told we're
imagining things. This schism alone can create great psychological tension.
I'm not saying that's a bad thing, for perhaps we're meant to find the personal
strength, courage and faith in ourselves to break away from identification with
external ideas in order to validate our own judgment and determine our own
spiritual truths. If that's the case, this is an ideal situation in which to
foster independent spiritual seekers. Deep thinkers who question things and
those who stumble into personal spiritual experiences will naturally discover
this
deeper reality, and since they have no shamans, gurus or
masters to guide them these days, they must find their own way to make sense of
it all. As Joseph Campbell noted in 'Myths to Live By', 'The
mystic, endowed with native talents...and following...the instructions of a
master, enters the waters and finds he
can swim; whereas the schizophrenic, unprepared, unguided, and ungifted, has fallen or has intentionally plunged and
is drowning.' This metaphor beautifully illustrates how both the mystic
and the 'mad man' are wandering in the same territory but having vastly
different experiences of it. Where the mystic has some sense of what is
happening and longs for this journey more than even his own survival, the
schizophrenic is unprepared and consumed by fear.
Where one longs to transcend the ego/lower self, the other
clings to the ego in terror of losing the only sense of identity he has ever
consciously known. While we don't hear much about people who had psychotic
breaks and recovered from them, I hear from them every day. These are people who
perceived other realities, heard voices or saw strange entities who worked
through their experiences and went on to lead healthy, happy lives. I've also
read a number of accounts of people diagnosed as schizophrenic who healed
themselves by finding Spirit in some way, and I've met many who had psychotic
breaks but weren't diagnosed schizophrenic who found their
way to healing. Instead of drowning, they taught themselves how to swim in this strange ocean
of experience. By growing spiritually stronger, they were able to swim
from terrifying territory toward calmer waters, where their visions changed from
frightening to beautiful and helpful. Instead of seeing demons, they became more
like mystics and began to see kind spirits, guides and angels. Many even
consciously identify fear itself as the true cause of all their distress, and
some sort of faith or personal relationship with the Divine as the remedy.
Indeed, many gifted psychics began their extraordinary path in some form of 'madness' or psychological
crisis, and found their way to a higher level of experience without turning their psychic senses
completely off. So what determines how we may fare when suddenly exposed
to other realms? Whether we do it before, during, or after a spiritual break
from 'reality,' we must all face our own inner shadows, fears and issues. If we
devote ourselves to spiritual growth before diving into mystical waters, we'll
be prepared to work through whatever we encounter. If we somehow stumble into
those waters before we're spiritually strong and ready, we
may flail and flounder, trying to gain our footing while projecting our fears and issues all
around us. As we gain conscious access to subtle energies and higher
powers, we must also open our hearts to the power of love. In my research, I was
struck by the tendency of schizophrenics to be totally absorbed in their own
inner experiences and especially their fears. Similarly, I've noted that many
set themselves free from madness when they began to look beyond their own
concerns to the needs of others. The more they grew to care about other people,
the more they were lifted out of all-consuming fears for their own well-being,
much as the mystic transcends the ego to reach for the Divine. By shifting toward love,
they raised their vibration, which naturally led them to a higher level of spiritual experience, empowerment
and understanding. I'm sure love and faith sound like naive remedies given
the devastating nature of psychosis. However, if we study people with
biologically healthy brains who experienced traumatic breaks from physical
reality and went on to lead healthy lives, it does seem that spiritual growth
and healing offer the most effective cures for psychological distress. While modern medicine can work wonders
with the body, when it comes crises of the mind and soul, spiritual healing and support
are essential.
- Julia
Brigette
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