Depression and Mediumship Don't Mix

by Julia Melges-Brenner. Copyright Sabrina Scott, Inc. All rights reserved. Written for and originally published in Kajama.

Dear Julia:

I have recently started channeling and mediumship. For many years, I've heard a sobbing deep within my being. I don't think this is me. Is it possible that there is an earthbound spirit somehow attached to or part of me? I have been feeling very suicidal lately and I have been under a massive amount of stress as well. What can I do?

Diane

Dear Diane:

First let's address your most pressing issue: your suicidal thoughts and feelings. I won't freak out as much as some people might over your mention of being suicidal, for I don't view death as the end or even a tragedy. At the same time, checking out early isn't the answer, for you'll just set yourself back in terms of spiritual growth and progress and end up with even more problems and challenges to overcome. I thus encourage you to get some emotional help and spiritual healing right away.

I often recommend that people who feel suicidal watch the film <i>Joe Vs. the Volcano</i> with Tom Hanks because it illustrates how, even when it seems there is no hope, instead of giving up, we can begin to really shine; instead of dying, we can begin to truly live for the first time. If you can't find the self-love to be kind to yourself for yourself, then perhaps you can decide to dedicate yourself to helping others, and in this way find the will to live.

Now let's explore your question about mediumship and its various risks.

First, people who are sensitive but not psychically awake are exactly the sorts of people who tend to have spirit attachments. Spirits seek out these sorts of people because they are the easiest to influence.

Imagine that an earthbound spirit is like a puppet master. The spirit ties strings to the puppet/person it wants to influence. Someone who is psychically sensitive readily responds to even slight movements by the puppet master. This makes that person easy to control. Someone who is not psychically sensitive wouldn't feel the tugs and would just keep going about their business. Someone who is sensitive but aware of subtle energies would recognize that some outside force was trying to act on them, and ignore the puppet master's efforts or cut those strings as soon as they were attached. Someone who is both sensitive and unconscious, however, would both respond to gentle tugs and have no conscious idea that they were being influenced in this way.

Mediums are more open to the spirit world both for good and ill. They can seek and receive spiritual healing and guidance more readily than most people, but they can also be more readily influenced by lower entities. It is therefore more important for psychically sensitive individuals to develop conscious awareness and control of their own vibration.

You mention that you are just starting to move into mediumship, which suggests that you are in the process of becoming conscious of subtle influences such as spirits. This also suggests that you are psychically very sensitive. This all supports your theory that you have perhaps been under the influence of an attached spirit for years, for up until now, you would have been the ideal subject of such attention. Now that you're becoming conscious of what is going on, you will no longer be vulnerable and can take purposeful measures to manifest a higher level of experience.

To be free of dark influences, we must give them no inner shadows to hide in by turning up our inner light. We do this through spiritual purification. First we must be honest with ourselves about our issues. We must be vigilant about confronting our lower self/ego and striving to embody our higher selves. This is not a one-time job; it's something we must do every hour of every day.

To lift ourselves out of the realm of vulnerability to lower influences, we must cultivate divine love and compassion within. This is one reason why deciding to live in order to be of service to others may greatly help you: it may bring just the healing and inspiration you need to want to live for yourself by shifting you into a higher vibration where darkness can't get a grip on you.

We must ferret out our fears and replace them with courage and faith; face the ways we lie to ourselves and others and become utterly genuine; conquer laziness and indifference with passion and devotion to a higher cause. When we cultivate these qualities, it's like we develop spiritual armor with magical powers to lift us above strife and carry us safely to the fulfillment of our spiritual goals.

Perhaps the trickiest part of all of this is that we can't do it in the manner that most of us have been taught to <q>improve ourselves.</q> Instead of mentally whipping ourselves into better spiritual shape, we have to relax with trust in the whole evolutionary process and love ourselves into a higher vibration. This sort of approach is totally foreign and in some ways essentially opposite from how we've been taught to seek improvement in other areas of our lives.

If we seek spirit contact while in a depressed state, we are sure to connect with low spirits because of our own low vibration. To pursue mediumship and manifest a very positive, high level of experience, you must embody a high vibration and radiate well-being. You must be open-minded, inquisitive, and passionate about exploring spiritual subjects. Whenever you feel anxious, sad, weak, or any other lower state, do not pursue spirit communication; instead, pursue healing and focus on raising your own vibration. Only those who are in a strong, vibrant state of physical, emotional, mental and spiritual health should pursue spirit contact.

Indeed, if we want to know what sorts of spirits may be influencing us, we have only to look to our own general mood and attitude, for the two are inseparable. What we feel inside always corresponds to what we are attracting both in terms of metaphysical influences and ultimately our physical circumstances. To attract higher spirits and a high level of experience, we must embody a high personal vibration.

You are probably wondering what you can do to break this pattern of low mood/vibration and low spiritual influence. I recommend you seek the help of a sensitive, compassionate healer. You want someone who is psychically sensitive and/or someone like a hypnotherapist who can dialogue with your own higher self to help you heal from whatever is bringing you down, whether that is an earthbound entity, unresolved past/past life issues, or some other influence.

While the subject of past lives is on the table, I should mention that it's entirely possible that what you're struggling with is somehow carried over from a past life. The sobbing that you feel could be a frozen part of yourself that needs healing. If you left your last life sobbing and depressed, for example, that part of you may still be crying out for healing. There are all sorts of possibilities regarding why you feel this deep, heavy sorrow. Since every case is as unique as the individual who needs healing, finding a gifted, loving healer is the way to go.

- Julia



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